Sunnnnyness

I like sunny days like today, it just cheers me up. I have come to the decision ill be living at home this year, Birmingham was just too lonely, but ill miss the people I met there. But who knows what'll happen in 3rd year. Loving my new workplace. Everyone is super nice and hopefully they think I'm doing a great job!

Summerr

We seem to have had 4 days of sun over the month I've been home for summer. Not good. Currently waiting in ridiculous traffic to get to work and its raining. But I'm happy. I'm chilled, no stress and I passed my first year at uni. Fucking craaazy. I do want some sunshine though.

Had a lovely walk today...

With my boyf and Roxy the Staffy :D
She went swimming, we died in the beautiful heat wave we've had all of a sudden. Definitely gonna do it again, but with an ice cream stop on the way next time...

Back in notts for the summer :D

Happppy happy happy.           
Just gonna chill today and unpack my life again. Can be with my beautiful boyfriend toooo.

Ima start doing more work on plays and all that too. Might post some concepts sooon.

Working over Easter

I want to go hoooome.
But I must work and earn money to pay my rent. Rent that I have to pay for until July. JULY.
Even though I'm only gonna be living here till like the end of May. Sillyness.

Things are going well and I hope that my lovely new Councillor can help me understand why I'm so down on myself lately. I'm a happy person, I want to stay that way.

Uni is going reasonably well though, which is a bonus. Work is, well work and I'm still not getting paid enough I swear, I've been promoted since December and still haven't seen my payrise.

I want to buy myself some nice clothes and jewellery. And work out a style that suits me, especially now I'm back to brown hair and I've had it all chopped off.

Bring on summer is all i have to say!


xx

i need a shave.

its 4am, I have an eyeliner moustache and room temperature rosè is not the one.
Stir crazy, alcoholic, loner?
I prefer tortured poet wannabe.

Girl, Interrupted.

Actually love this song.
And also the film that has me listening to it.
If you haven;t already seen it, do.
It made me cry and laugh and all the things a good film should make you do.

I hope I cheer up by the end of tonight.

I feeel fat, boring and I'm stone cold broke.

On the plus side, I ate healthily today and went to the gym.

I also miss my boyfriend. Like, a lot.

But as one to be painfully optimistic, I'm hoping I'll be fine by later on and that I can generate conversation without feeling awkward or that I can be with out feeling fat and that everyone is judging me because I am fat. Things will get better, I will get thinner, and I will manage to convince myself that my job isnt as bad as I think it is (its killing me a bit, from the inside- out)

waaaah

Got in from work about an hour ago - stood waiting for my taxi home for 20mins more than he said - to which a different company picked me up anyway convincing me the company I phoned ran out of cars and sent him instead, sneaky taxi drivers, got home all the same.

Work hurts me from the inside out, the distress comes first and then the physical aching of scouring down a kitchen kicks in;maybe I'm just a pussy.

Lecture in 6 hours - debating sleep or vodka. Plus a stuuuupid 9/10 hour shift tomorrow after uni, swear my arms are gonna fall off.

I need sleep, sex and some time off work.

I hate being in Birmingham, especially when it keeps me from this gorgeous creature:


He doesnt always mind me kissing him, he just has cute funny faces, I hope. <3

Lonesome Birmingham.

Was lovely to be back in Nottingham for a few days - nooow am back in Brum; I rly should make some friends here tbh...
I want to go out and get wasted on cocktails and music I don't care to pass any judgement on.



I also found this frickin' adorable.

I'm gonna drink some Cider now to be prepared for my 10am lecture tomorrow morning. wasteeman.
Ive just found that while I'm having a good Uni experience, I'm missing my friends, family and boyfriend a lot and I struggle fitting in at my workplace.

Typical first year student should have more of an enjoyable social life than an enjoyable academic life, right?

I will make friends... I also need to find somewhere to live from September onwards, hmmm.

Errrro.

I'm Josh, I'm 18 and have never successfully stuck to a diary or a blog

Hopefully this will now change.

I wanna document things that interest me, things that I find topical, what I get up to and stuff that's just darn coool.

I'm rather shy and reserved.
I'm also friendly and optimistic.
I'm happier when I'm dancing with a drink in my hand, however.

Theatre is a passion, directing theatre is a passion. I want to learn everything I can about the Theatre.
For now though, I'm trying to succeed in my English degree at BCU.

I love dressing up, wearing face paint, and changing my hair colour. I am interested in fashion, I just don't really express this interest much; partly lack of money, partly lack of confidence.

Hopefully this will be time well spent and I can post ideas, inspirations and narratives as I wish.

ciao ciao.